In loving memory of my dearest Aunt Becky.

It broke our hearts to lose you, but you did not go alone. Apart of us went with you, the day God took you home. If tears could build a stairway. and heartaches make a lane, we'd walk our way to heaven, and bring you back again. In life we loved you dearly, In death we love you still, In our hearts you hold a place, No one could ever fill. I found this poem and the words stuck out to me like a neon light. February 11, 2016 my dearest Aunt Becky passed out of this life and made her way up heavens stairs. She battled breast and bone cancer for 10 long years, she was strong in her weakest moments and held on with all she could. I wanted to be there with her when she passed but I knew that emotionally I could not handle it. My parents along with my sister Courtney traveled down to be with her until her final moment. Yesterday when I got the call that she went on to see Jesus, my heart split into two. I cried for awhile until I got enough strength to get back to helping the youth group and some very special people from our church make truffles for our youth trip. The whole day I felt a deep sadness but as I talked with some church family and one of my friends I realized that everything was going to be okay. I'm so thankful that they were there for me. I realized she's in a much better place. How lucky she is to be with Jesus! There's always a reason for everything and I believe that this sad heartache and passing of Aunt Becky is going to bring my family closer than we've ever been. I believe that God has a plan for my family. We may not know yet but I believe one day we will look back on this moment and say ''Thank you God for showing us that even in our weakest moments, you give us the strength we need to carry on.'' Even though you can't hear me Aunt Becky. I love you and miss you soooooo very much. Save me a seat in heaven because that's where I'm going!

It's been awhile!

Hey y'all, I'm so sorry. It's been awhile since I posted. Happy New Years by the way! Hope everyone is having an awesome year! I know I am!! I promise I will be posting more soon!!

Christmas Post

Here is a slideshow of the lights and decor around our house!

kayla tarpley's Slidely by Slidely Slideshow

Christmas Post

So yesterday morning we opened presents and ate breakfast then started to bake and cook for when all the family came over later that night. I didn't get any pictures of just my family because we stayed in our pajamas all day until the rest of the family came over! I had an awesome day and got alot of presents and gift cards! I hope everyone enjoyed thier day! I'm still listening to Country Christmas music! Lol. I don't care for Mariah Carey and all the Pop Christmas. I usually listen to Jazz or Country Christmas. Anyway's I made brownies, fudge and some buffalo ranch rollups. My mom and sister made reindeer food, snowball cookies, white-chocolate dipped pretzles and so much more! I also made some sparkling drinks for everyone! Thier was the ''Frostbite'', and the ''Sparkling Rasberry Lemonade". Both of them were delicious! I hope ya'll enjoyed all the food and presents...I know I did! Here are some pictures I took last night!

Merry Christmas!!!

I know this post is four days early but today is the only day I have available to post. I hope everyone has a Merry Christmas! I know I will!!! I'm so excited that Christmas is only four days away!!! Can you believe it!? It seems like this year has gone by to fast. I will be posting tons of pictures this year because this year the family is coming over to my house this year! I always enjoy having people over around the holidays! I love cooking around Christmas because there is always a new recipe to try! I hope everyone enjoys themselves this Christmas! Remember Jesus is the reason for the season!

Starting of December...

Happy December ya'll! It's already been a busy month with my birthday, our church Christmas dinner and decorating the house. We had so much fun at the church Christmas dinner! They did a hilarious live skit and by live I mean that all the cast had no idea they were going to be in it until they got picked lol...and since I missed being at church for the whole church to sing to me...they sang happy birthday to me the hillbilly way! That's the consequences for not being there on your birthday! Anyway's here are some pictures!

I told them to smile but my dad didn't get the memo...lol

Never can take a normal picture with the bro

Isn't that a lovely horse?

The Chili's Crew singing to me

Self- Confidence

So I've thinking  lately about how I'm not perfect in a lot of areas in my life. But as I got to thinking about some of the things I asked myself,  ''Why am I not perfect?''...the reason is, is because no one is perfect. It took me awhile to reliaze that but as I reliazed that, I began to think about self- confidence. Self- confidence has so many meanings for example, it means composure and self-assurance which both of these are things a person has to have in their life in order to get somewhere in life. I was thinking about how I can play piano but can't play how I would like to play.I've always just wanted to sit down at the piano and just play a song not by chording but by notes...I can't read notes but I like the sound of notes. So as I sat down at the piano yesterday I told myself that I was going to learn the Christmas song  ''Silent Night'' by note and find the notes by myself. I got a notebook and a pen and hit keys until I found the perfect key which was the d key, then I hit the e key, back to d and then on to b. I reliazed that I was picking out the notes, I continued until I had the whole song completed and in that moment realized that I accomplished something I didn't think I could do! I thought to myself ...''What made me finish this without quitting?''. It was self- confidence. I put my everything into that moment and realized that I didn't let fear or the ''I'm not good enough'' or the ''I can't'' get in my way. I thought I would share this with ya'll because this because just realizing this ... self-conidence has changed my view on a lot of things. I hope this helps anyone who has struggled with something similar. Don't let people drive fear into you...If they criticize you for something that your doing right just ignore those kind of people. If there's someone that does something better than you don't let their greatness get in the way of you doing that same thing just as good. I hope ya'll enjoy this post and I hope it helps!